Published by admin on 22 Jan 2016

Moses, 3 years 6 months

This little list of questions is going around Facebook, and since I can never find anything on Facebook when I need to find it, I figured I’d bring it back old school and blog it.

Make a Wish

1. What is something I always say to you?
Hoppy doody!  (This is hilarious, mostly because this is something he and his friends came up with and torture teachers with.  They are three.)

2. What makes me happy?
When I fly something. (He was throwing his parachute man around when I was asking these questions.)

3. What makes me sad?
When I do something naughty.  (Oh! He is listening!)

4. How do I make you laugh?
With an elephant. (No idea.)

5. What was I like I as a child?
A dinosaur. (My kid is a jerk.)

6. How old am I?
3! “How old am *I*?” 3?

7. How tall am I?
10 tall.

8. What’s my favorite thing to do?
Do your work. (Hey! My kid knows I love my job!)

9. What do I do when you’re not around?

10. What am I really good at?

11. What is something I’m not good at?

12. What do I do for a job?
Go to work! “But what do I do when I’m at work?” Work with your friends!

13. What is my favorite food?

14. What do you enjoy doing with me?


Published by admin on 21 Jan 2016

What I did for my 40th Birthday

I went to work, locked an episode, went to lunch with my awesome coworkers at our favorite* BBQ joint, had a drink**, left work early, gave my babies a bath, and had them sing Happy Birthday to me over and over again, then Seth got home and I blew out some candles and put my flowers in a vase and put my babies to bed. Manny kept singing Happy Birthday to me while I was rocking him and it was so adorable but also such a Manny move to not go to sleep.

It was a lovely day.  And this weekend I’m spending with my sister and Cassie and I can’t wait.


*It’s our favorite because we never have a problem getting a lunch reservation for 8 or more people, they have a full bar and wings and mac and cheese and isn’t that enough?

**I mean, it’s my birthday, I’m allowed a lunch cocktail, right?

Published by admin on 19 Jan 2016

Midlife Crisis Thing, continued

Tell me, what else should I have done?
Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?

—Mary Oliver

I’m trying to think of something great to say on the eve of this big birthday and all I keep thinking is, why is every morning (after struggling to make it to the coffee) so full of promise and every evening crawling ugly to the finish line?

Why don’t I do more with my life?

Why can’t what I do be enough?

What am I missing, what do I have that I’m not enjoying?

I think as a kid I imagined my life much like Sue Ellen’s in Don’t Tell Mom the Babysitter’s Dead. Big shoulder pads wearing boss lady, having people hold my calls. And my reality is more like Albert Brooks in Broadcast News, flop sweating my way to the middle.

I mean honestly, I am a television producer living in Los Angeles with a husband and two children.  That in and of itself seems like I did it, I made the dream come true.  So… what’s next?


Published by admin on 18 Jan 2016

One BILLION Dollars

I was part of a pool at work and instead of one BILLION dollars, we won $20, so we got Krispy Kreme donuts. And I’d say WE were the real winners.

If I had a billion dollars, well, I think we know what I would do.  Something super irresponsible with like 5 million of it and the rest I’d do something for humanity.

Since money is on everyone’s brain, I’ve been looking at the damage Christmas/Hanukkah and travel did to my budget and I could use a couple cool millions right now.  I think the best way for me to get those millions is to get my nose back to the grindstone and get some writing projects done.  All I need to do is write the next Star Wars.  Easy, right?

One BILLION dollars, come to mama.

Published by admin on 03 Jan 2016

2016 Goals

I’ve been thinking about what I want to accomplish this year and besides turning 40 gracefully, I’ve been stewing and stewing. There’s so much I want to do and I never give myself enough time. I’m going to be 40! (?!?!) I still feel about 27 or 33. One of those. Whichever one I was better at.  (If you knew me at 27 and at 33 both – just keep it to yourself which one I was better at.) For those of you who are already 40, please forgive my insolence for the next couple of sentences.  It’s not you, it’s me. 40 is SO OLD! I remember when my MOM turned 40!  That was like, funeral balloons and best wishes for an early grave time. I know, I know, 40 is different now. We’re all cooler in our skinny jeans and aging tattoos and no one dares tell us our high buns look ridiculous and we should just give up and cut our hair short and get it “set” once a month like our grandmas did. I am not handling this 40 thing very well now that I think of it. 40?! It’s SO OLD. My life is probably about half over. Like, once you hit 80 everything is pretty shitty I’m guessing, so anything after that is… UGH.  YOU GUYS….

I’ve had too many vodka San Pellegrino Limonatas. I blame it on the al-al-al-al-al-alcohol.  (OMG, I am the worst old lady ever.)

So, goals.

  1. Cook more good food for my kids.  (This is going spectacularly badly so far, I made mini-quiches tonight and Manny ate 1.5 and Moses said, “Yuck, they taste like soup.” Which, WHAT? What kind of insult is that? Soup is good. I hate my kids sometimes.)
  2. Do something that puts myself out there professionally and is outside of my “safe” zone. (I mean, really, I’m going to be fucking 40, do I want to be the oldest story producer on the team? *small voice* maybe *small voice*)
  3. Read 50 books (compared to the above, this one is fucking EASY.)
  4. Go camping for the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE.  (I mean, what kind of 40 year old small town girl turned sort of half assed hipster with a goddamned outdoorsy husband has never been camping? This KIND.  When do I have to stop calling myself a girl? Also.)
  5. Go to Disneyland with my sister and Cassie (I’m putting this here because we have hotel reservations and I know we will do it and forgive me, did I mention I’m turning 40 and things are very difficult for me right now?)
  6. One “no buy” month.
  7. Get healthier (What does this even mean? I don’t know, maybe not drink 3 vodka Limonatas in one sitting? WHATEVER. I’m GOING TO BE OLD, OLD PEOPLE CAN DO WHAT THEY WANT.)
  8. Go on 12 dates with my husband.  (Once a month, that shouldn’t be too hard, but it will be.)


Ok, that’s enough for now, the kids are screaming and it’s bath time and everyone is a mess. Including me.

Published by admin on 01 Jan 2016

2015 Recap

It’s that time of year! (for a recap meme inspired by Sundry.  My old recaps are here – 201020112012, 2013, 2014.

1. What did you do in 2015 that you’d never done before?

Went snow tubing! Worked on two shows that are not only popular but critically acclaimed. Tried to lose weight but couldn’t (crying eyes emoji). Saw The Book of Mormon. Went to Disney Hall and saw a concert. Saw my step daughter get married. I took an Avid assistant editing class (I have a master’s degree and don’t know some really practical stuff).

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I kept a couple – they are here – I worked more than 40 weeks AND I did a “no buy” month.  I will make more this year, because I love a good list.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Not physically close, but my Internet Women’s Cabal had a few babies. I can’t wait to squish Jenny’s Everett in person.

4. Did anyone close to you die?


5. Where did you travel?

We visited the Bay Area, San Diego, Washington (state not DC).

6. What would you like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015? 

Last year I said, “More than 3 months work.  Wow, I did not work a lot this year and we are broke.” Boy, did I ever get that. This year, I really felt like I could never get a handle on any one thing except work.  Like, I could go into work and feel completely comfortable and as if I knew exactly what I was doing, I would like more of that comfort level in all the other areas of my life at least a little, so I don’t feel like I’m flailing when I’m not expected to be at my desk writing interviews and cutting footage.

7. What dates from 2015 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 

I don’t have a single date that sticks out in my head. But the mass shootings here and abroad have really made me think differently about what I want to be as a human and a mother.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Saving my marriage.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Giving up Lula to my sister because we could not find a way to keep her and Seth living happily together any longer.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I was so sick this year, just cold after cold after cold. And today, I am healthy! Starting 2016 with no cold is pretty nice.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Wireless headphones so I could watch TV in our bedroom without waking up the boys.  Even though they still wake up, just not because of the TV.

12. Where did most of your money go? 


13. What did you get really excited about? 

I was super excited to start my job on the Bravo show that starts with a V and I was really excited to go see my sister.

15. Compared to this time last year, are you:

– happier or sadder? Happier, I’d say.

– thinner or fatter? Fatter.

– richer or poorer? I think the same.

16. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Getting my blood pumping. I did so much sitting this year and I really just can’t let my health slide like that again. I want to live a long life so I can see all the future things my boys will do.

17. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Internet surfing. I have an addiction.

18. How did you spend Christmas? 

This year was at home again with Seth’s sister, daughter and son in law on Christmas day with lox and bagels and booze.

19. What was your favorite TV program? 

The Walking Dead really delivered this year, and I liked Fear the Walking Dead, Bletchley Circle, Game of Thrones and the show I work on.

20. What were your favorite books of the year?

Station Eleven. I still think about that plane that just sat on the tarmac.

21. What was your favorite music this year?

I love pop music in all its forms and this year there isn’t just one song that seemed like a 2015 anthem to me.

22. What were your favorite films of the year?

I didn’t see many movies, but I loved The Force Awakens and I really liked The Martian and Jurassic World.  Those are probably the only grown up movies I saw this year.

23. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I was 39! And we went out to eat at a restaurant? Maybe? I have to do a better job of documenting this stuff.

24. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

A private jet, chef and personal assistant? But really, a living room that has a big tv and a comfy couch and two children that sleep through the night, but that is just being picky. I really don’t have a lot to complain about.

25. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2015? NEW: What was the political issue you that stirred you?

I don’t know – I don’t have one. I am changing this question.  Gun control.  We need to get rid of the easy access to guns. And I am putting my dollars where my mouth is – you can too.  Every is a great place to start.

26. What kept you sane?

Prescription drugs do a good job, add to that having a job that I love, a husband who refuses to let us quit this crazy family and two little boys that continue to amaze me.

27. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015.

I read this post and even though I know this, it reminded me that life really is that short. There aren’t that many opportunities to hang out with my sister and see my friends and I just have to make these things a priority, because before you know it, it’ll be too late.

Published by admin on 10 Dec 2015

Moses Stuff

Moses is getting so tall and smart and one day I told him to stop growing and then I started to fake cry when he said he needed to grow bigger. He said, “Don’t cry mommy, I’ll always be your little baby!” And then I almost started to real cry, but hey, that’s neither here nor there.

Now he tells me just about every day that he’s getting taller and taller and taller and taller, and I fake cry and he tells me it’s ok I’ll always be your baby!

Am I giving him a complex? Maybe?

Three is so fun, you guys.

Published by admin on 26 Nov 2015


This year, so far, has been incredibly difficult, but we’re all still here. And I am more than thankful, I’m thankoverful.

Seth and I have been through a lot.  Despite each of our best efforts to say the worst things and scream the worser things and whisper the worstest things, we still love each other. (A friend of mine who is pregnant with her second baby, who will be 20 months younger than her first when he’s born, asked me and another friend who also has two children 18 months apart and is divorced, what advice we had. I said, start couples therapy now.  Our divorced friend said, YES. Do it now.)

My boys amaze me every day. They are growing up so beautifully together and are just so fun to parent. (Obviously, some things are not fun, but trying to convince Moses my ears are deaf to whining is at least amusing to me. “I’m sorry, I couldn’t hear you. Could you repeat that without whining? Nope, still not hearing you….”)  Seth pulled out some toys from the garage that were their older brother and sister’s and when I came home from work tonight, Moses was playing with the AT-AT and said, “Mommy, I’m sorry Daddy didn’t get you any presents.” I said, “He gets me very nice presents all of the time.”  Moses, “Like flowers?”  Me, “No….” Moses, “We’re going to get you flowers.”

Happy Thanksgiving, friends.



Published by admin on 23 Nov 2015

Vapid Consumerism

I did a month of no shopping at Target a while back, maybe August? Or September? I just checked my blog archives and since I haven’t written anything since July it was one of those months. I think August. I also didn’t buy anything on Amazon. It was kind of an intense month for me. It did my check book good and I also think it opened my eyes to how much I use a “quick trip to Target” to buy things I don’t need to fill some sort of hole that I could fill with much better pursuits. Like – even giving $150 to a random stranger would be better spent than some of the shit I’ve purchased at Target.

The other day I was walking into Ralph’s to pick up milk (good God we go through a lot of milk) and a man with really beautiful light brown eyes asked if I could spare any change. I do my best when the person isn’t clearly insane or aggressive to look them in the eyes when I say I can’t, or not today, and I did that and he said, “thank you anyway.” I bought milk and some bagels and got $5 cash back and handed it to him on the way out. I heard him say to his wife/partner/friend as she walked into the store, “Cigarettes.” And there are people that would be pissed, someone just gave you five whole dollars, and you’re going to buy cigarettes? And whatever, he might have purchased any number of things that I don’t think he “should have.” but I gave that money to him. He gets to decide what he wants to do with it now. I hope those cigarettes tasted like a little bit of comfort on a cold night.

This is a weird post. I don’t know what’s going on, but I felt like writing about Etsy stores and then all this random stuff about Target and $5 to strangers spilled out and now it feels weird to link to vapid consumer goods, but hey, here we all are.

I have two stores that I really like that I wanted to tell you about.

First – Uncommon and Nice. If you have a book lover on your list that you are kind of stumped on what to buy them, because now they read everything on their kindle, I’d go here. This guy makes phone chargers out of books.  I have the Pride and Prejudice one. It works great, looks amazing and I just love it.

Second – If you are looking for personalized Christmas stockings, LittleWhiteBoutique is so great. I got myself a stocking from her last year and I adore it. She’s in Latvia of all places, but if you order before November 24th, you’ll get your stocking before Christmas without having to pay for expedited shipping.

I love Etsy in theory, but find it can be very overwhelming when you’re just looking for say, a pretty necklace or a pair of earrings.  Hit me up with your favorite stores in the comments if you feel like sharing in some vapid consumerism.

(Not sponsored, just dig the stores. Also, thanks for bearing with me while I get used to blogging again, I’m clearly a little rusty.)


Published by admin on 22 Nov 2015

Playing catch up

I have what amounts to my dream job right now. It fills the sweet spot of fantastic content, funny and nice and talented co-workers, airs on a network that people have heard of and pays well.  There are down sides, but they are what they are.

The boys are growing and changing so quickly. I’ll watch a video from a few months ago and I want to just push the babies down and tell them to stop going so quickly. I told Moses tonight that he’s growing up to fast and I started to whimper (and fake cry) and he said, “Don’t cry, mommy! It’s ok.” And then I almost started to real cry.

We’ve been having a pretty great time at home these days and the weekends fly by. I still have a few moments a day where I’m like, “Where is the nanny to take the children back to their wing?” but Moses is super fun right now and Manny is just the funniest. He is so in love with Moses and they are becoming the best of friends.  My little bitter heart can’t take it.

Seth’s daughter’s wedding was a few weeks ago and we hosted his son, daughter in law and grandson for a few days and it was so fun to see the boys with their nephew (4 months younger than Manny). Manny saw a picture of Moses when he was about L’s age and said L’s name over and over. I guess there’s a family resemblance.  Or, like most babies, hair color equals same person.

While the family was staying with us, we moved Moses’ bed into our room and one night I was watching my episode with headphones while Moses snuggled in bed with me and he gave me notes that I swear to god if you put them in a document with the network notes no one would know the difference.

“Ooo! Cars! What was that?”

“Is that a real swan? Does it talk?”


“Where’d the other cat go? Did it run away? Maybe it jumped out the window. That would be bad.”

You’re probably laughing, thinking, no network exec would give notes like that. Well, you would be wrong.

So. November. Almost over.

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