I was scanning through some photos looking for a version of my haircut that I wanted to bring to my hairdresser to repeat, when I saw The Photos.  The C Section Photos.

I haven’t been able to look at them because, 1. I have a very fainty relationship with gore and descriptions of gore, and 2. I have always heard about doctors taking guts out and laying them on your stomach to get the baby and wasn’t sure if that was the case here or an urban legend and the thought of seeing my intestines on the outside, well, see #1.

But, I finally looked at them.

And they are incredible.  The first image of my baby.  You can’t see his face because my doctor’s hand looks like she’s suctioning him, but you can see the other surgeon clamping the cord.  And his little hand is reaching up.

I’m just in awe of my doctors, my broke-down body and my little baby boy.  I’m glad I finally looked.

(The below image is cropped, because you guys probably don’t want to see my guts on the outside.  JK, they weren’t on the outside, but my open wound is very visible, so I cropped it.)

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