Published by admin on 13 Jan 2013 at 08:08 pm
We started sleep training on Friday night. It has been… fucking awful. For me.
We’re doing Ferber (with some modifications made for me and my personal feelings about things, one of those things being pacifiers. It’s bad enough kids can’t have blankets or toys or bumpers, but pacifier use in kids actually lowers SIDS risk so, there you go. Also, I’m still doing a night feeding, because I am. That’s why.). The first night was tough as we expected. There were a lot of wake ups and and I would set a stop watch app on my computer so I could see how long before I could go in. I would look down after what I thought would surely be at least a minute and 15 seconds would have gone by. We did 3, 5, and 10 minute intervals. It was a long night. And a long next day when we also did it for naps.
The second night was much improved. I put him into bed awake. He started to fuss, I gave him his pacifier and he rolled over and went to sleep. Just like that. He woke up an hour later crying, but went to sleep five minutes after that. There were a couple other wake-ups during the night (one for the feeding), but he did so much better.
Tonight we had about 15 minutes of crying. 15 minutes when you look down and expect a minute to have gone by and it’s only 15 seconds is a long time. I went in after 8 (I’m supposed to be up to 15 minutes waiting by now) and he was soaked with sweat. He’s now finally asleep, but I’m not confident it will last.
The weirdest thing about sleep training is that I am incapable of talking to anyone while he’s crying. I can only sit there and stare at the monitor and focus on the crying. I expected to want to watch TV or talk or anything other than listen to him, but it’s all I want to do. That and stare at the stopwatch and will the seconds to go by faster.