Published by admin on 26 Nov 2009
I miss writing here. I’m thankful that I’m starting to unfreeze writing wise. It’s not showing up here yet, but eventually the ripples will reach here.
I did some cooking today. It was nice. I had music on in the kitchen and the knives seemed sharp and the oven worked.
I have done a ton of shopping in the past week. For myself. This is twofold. My clothes are all tattered and worn because I don’t go shopping for myself. I lost some weight. I only like to buy clothes when I’m around this weight. I realize this all kinds of fucked up. I am in therapy for many reasons.
I am moments away from Thanksgiving dinner. With relatives of Seth’s I’ve never met. I feel no anxiety. My therapy is working in some ways. Meeting new people? Not as anxious making anymore. Except for the impending ex-wife meeting. I will be meeting her at Seth’s daughter’s graduation from pastry school. There is maybe a pie in the face joke in there somewhere, not sure where.
I’m off for four days. It feels glorious. Then after next Friday, I’ll be on the dole again. That doesn’t feel so glorious.
Happy Thanksgiving. I’m thankful for many things this year, but mostly I’m thankful that Seth and I are still completely in love. It’s a feeling I hope never goes away.